My heart is so heavy.
My phone and wallet was stolen in Barcelona from my side bag when I was exploring a park with my sisters. The most upsetting thing about this was 1. I don't know how it happened. My bag was with me on my side the whole time and I didn't feel a nudge or hear an unzip from my bag. And 2. I only just bought my phone a little over a month ago.

I know it can be replaced but it's made me feel empty and very sad. Everytime I think about how the situation could have been like, it makes me more sad. How I entered Gaudi's house and took some pictures and then I walked out and it was gone like that. It felt like I just had my phone yesterday and it was perfectly brand new. I just bought the damn phone and now it's made me so sick of spending. Spending on this trip which I'm only less than 3/4 of the way through and then having to go and buy another new phone, license, wallet, etc when I come home.

I just don't know how it happened. I don't like how they've touched and gone through my wallet right about now. Touched my cards, cash, luggage keys. How they've touched my phone and looked at my wallpaper and also the polaroid I had attached at the back of my phone of me and Drew that was taken on my birthday. I hate how they've now probably had the phone reset and used the phone for themselves from my hard working money. I hate how they stole my belongings and I didn't know.

What's worse is that I also miss home and Drew. And it's Drew's birthday today in Aus time and I can't be there to celebrate it with him. It also upsets me that he's probably upset that I'm not there with him but he tells me he's "okay". I'm so upset at so many things, including myself.

Why didn't I look after my bag more carefully, even though I thought it was secure. Why did I believe the slightest chance that these scumbags weren't going to touch my things that day.

I just remember so clearly the moment I checked my side bag after putting my phone back in when I left Gaudi's house, that my bag was empty. I felt like it happened 30 seconds after I exited the home. How did I not feel it. How on earth did they do it

Now I'm just trying to enjoy the 3.5 weeks I have in Europe with the very little that I have. But I'm just so traumatized, it's the last thing I think of before I sleep.



Thursday, August 17, 2017 1:24 AM