I titled this post '21' because it's been a really good year. I'm sort of feeling emotional right now because I'm on my second day of my period haha and I just wanted to tell the world what a rollercoaster year it has been since I turned 21.
So here's a list of things (recorded in my diary) that has happened from the day I turned 21 til now. I'm still 21... but a lot has happened since haha
My Birthday party (2nd April)- which I organised with hard work with my sisters. It was a white themed party with everything I dreamed of. Fairy and tea tree lights scattered in my grandmother's backyard with scented candles lit on the dining tables. I wanted everything to be what I imagined from the beginning. I actually drew a vision of what I wanted this supposed 'party', not necessarily my birthday party, but some sort of dinner or get together a couple of years ago in my diary. It was more like a sketch and I remember promising my friends a while back that I'd hold some sort of dinner like that for them. And there it was, at my 21st birthday party. I was very happy because I could celebrate that day with my friends and family, which are the two groups of people that mean so much to me. I remember crying in my speech because everyone conformed to my 'themed' party and wore white haha (I didn't think anyone cared!) and because everyone came and celebrated this special day with me. I'm still, til this day, so very happy that happened.
Heartbreak (August)- I suppose this was more of an experience than a bad memory. Sure it sucked but learning from it now, I'm more strong and cautious of who I give myself away to. I think I was more in search of being with someone than realizing what sort of hurt I'd get into. I'm not one to give myself away easily. I don't like being touched by people in clubs or bars or make out with randoms. And I think with him, he really taught me how to not trust anyone so easily that it'll destroy me. You taught me that there are dickheads like you out there who use and abuse poor innocent girls like me and I'll never forgive you for that. So this really hit me hard but I got back up and I'm a whole lot better and stronger now.
Graduation (5th May)- Graduated with an Arts degree majoring in Ancient History and Film Studies at the University of Sydney. What use does it have for me in the future? Possibly nothing. Do I care? I probably should. I feel like the past 3 years of studying was torture. I believe that university simply wasn't made for me. It was a dream and goal visualized by me and my parents but an experience that was hell. I don't know if I'll ever go back and do it again. But I need something other than an arts degree right? because who will ever hire you with that, if I'm honest.
Europe (11th June-3rd August) - The biggest overseas trip I've ever been to. I never believed it until the day Jess struck up on me and said hey! lets go book our tickets and we actually did on the day haha I could not believe it AT ALL. I remember feeling a huge shock that day because I shat $1.7k in one go which til this day, is the most I've ever spent haha But then a couple of days later it felt really good. It was so reassuring to know that me and Jess, who have always expressed about going to Europe and making it some sort of fantasy, become an actual reality. It was such an unbelievable experience. I remember when everything sank in when we arrived in Paris after our stay in London. It was the huge culture shock that made everything seem so different from Sydney that it finally made me realize that I was on the other side of the planet. French people, food, finally seeing the Eiffel Tower, Louvre, etcetc it was just amazing. And as we progressed throughout the cities and countries, things just got better and better. The fun experiences and memories made in each city was one I wish I could relive again. I wish I could lay down on the yacht in Santorini or ride the ATV across the city. Or see the pretty lights in Budapest at night. I can't believe I was gone for 2 months.
Friends- It's amazing what people can do for you when you're at your lowest of lows. I love the group of people I hang out with. We're so individually different yet compatible at the same time haha I love our late night adventures, talks, laughs and support that we have for each other. I love the humor that we carry and memories we make. I love that anyone is up for anything when one person isn't. I love it when we're understanding and help each other out when we're down. I love the things that we do for each other and I couldn't thank these bunch of people any more for what they've done for me.
UNSW Engineering Gala (29th September) - Haha what a crazy night. I was a total stinking mess but boy, what a good night with my friends!! We looked so good in our fancy schmancy outfits and having loads of fun. I think we digged ourselves into the wine a bit too fast and much but I had loads of fun!
Concerts- I didn't go to many concerts in the previous year but this year I went to Simple Plan, Flume, Coldplay, The Rubens and soon (still in my 21st year) Adele!!! I went to Simple Plan because it was the first ever concert I had been to and I remember it being really good, so I decided to go to one again and it still lived up to its expectations. Flume was REALLY GOOD haha And it was the first one I've been to with my friends and it was so much fun!! I loved dancing and singing with my friends and feeling so high on life. Everyone was just there for a good time and it was :) Coldplay, of course, smashed it out of the park again. The Rubens was nice and chill sitting in Taronga zoo while overlooking the harbour. And who knows what Adele will be like!!
Drew (17th November)- I actually met Drew in late September and we've been dating for almost 3 months. At first I really enjoyed his company and talking to him then I started getting confused and didn't know whether I was developing feelings or not. I was guarding myself and making sure that I was protecting my feelings because I didn't want to jump into something so quick. He was already great to talk to and I'm sure he would have been an amazing friend. Instead he's become an amazing boyfriend. I don't know what to say about him except for the fact that he makes me so incredibly happy and special. This entire paragraph is going to sound all cheesy and lovey dovey but honestly, he's really special. He makes me smile and laugh all the time and he really cares about me, which is all a girl ever wants right? And it's so unbelievably freaky how many things we have in common in our past when we first met. I've fallen in love with an incredible guy and I can't wait to see what the future holds for us.
Here's to being 21, and hopefully 22 would be just as good!