Some things,

1. I thought i'd be happy that uni is over but i'm not. It's dawned on me that I have nothing to do for the rest of my life that'll involve learning, studying and sitting for exams. Also seeing unfamiliar faces. I'm empty boys and girls. I wished I had a routine but now I'm sitting infront of a computer screen with a boring life that involves going to work and coming home. I've been trying to go out with people/ friends/ family and making the most out of a day because when you spend a whole day at home, you miss out on the world.

2. I really don't want to live at home. You have so much freedom when you're with yourself and friends outdoors, and you can make your own decisions without your parents hovering over you. That makes me feel good because if I'm able to live on my own, make my own decisions and live my life, my parents can accept the fact that I'm an adult and won't have to worry so much. Because right now living under their roof, they basically have a monitor on me tracking everything I eat, where I go and who I go with and what I'm doing. I really don't want to be at home.

3. That goes on to say that I want to move out or move to somewhere. I have nothing here for me. Here bores me.

4. I'm trying my best to pursue my dreams.

5. A brief conversation about birthday presents last night at Maria's. I'm not really a gift person. I like giving gifts but I don't really like receiving them because I really don't need anything. I have a million shoes, so many clothes, tonnes of backpacks, a gopro, macbook... not to mention I bought all of this for myself lol and I have certain specifications that I like in things. For example, I will only wear leather shoes which are expensive for people to buy, same goes for bags. I don't really collect things and I don't like high end brands. Unless they're ridiculously cheap so why not. You know what I would like? is a video, or a photo album of photos that I may or may not have seen of myself with friends or family. I'd like someone to take me to a national park or rainforest, the beach, nature, even for drinks or dinner. Get me a ticket to the easter show but obviously not with myself.... or to an afl game, concert, party/ club, sketch show, ballet show, opera show or a play. I like memories more than gifts and if you can give me that, then that'll be a great birthday present.

6. I'm going to Europe with jess, danny, dalena and jenny and i'm beyond excited. You know why? because I'm not at home.

7. I realise with the amount of time I have now, I can now properly have a boyfriend LOL


Wednesday, March 2, 2016 11:15 AM