My mum. She allows me to go out but she doesn't fall asleep until I come home. So she'll be up in the a.m. until she hears me walk through the front door. It makes me so angry because the later I stay out, the less sleep she gets, and that makes me feel like shit. I don't ask her to stay up all night and wait for me to come home. I don't ask her for anything. Why can't she just leave me alone. Why can't she trust me? Let me enjoy my time with my friends. Stop monitoring me. I'm not a baby girl. I feel so compelled to move out because I don't want her to know what I'm doing. Everytime i go out, same deal. Where are you going? Who are you going with? When are you coming home? You have work and uni tomorrow. Dad's going to be angry. I know this sounds like what a mother normally says and does when their child goes out, but my mum is a psycho. She's like a tracking device hidden in the heel of my shoes monitoring everywhere I go. I avoided her the entire day. I can not deal with her.
TV journalists and media. People can make up bullshit for fame and money and not give a shit about who they're hurting. Not to mention, jeopardise their career. For example, Paris Hilton got pranked on a TV show where she was convinced that she was going to die because her plane was going to crash. It's so obvious that this prank was inappropriate because she was clearly distressed and hysterical. Can you even imagine seeing someone flying out of the plane's exit and believing that you were going to die? Anyway this was on The Project when I found out and the lady on the panel just threw in that Paris was totally behind it. She was in on it and that it was all for show. Are you kidding me. Look at her face, she's clearly distressed. Everyone else was completely unconvinced by this lady's remark and I was disgusted. I'm disgusted at how people can make up lies and tie stupid "hints" together. Whether they're celebrity relationships/ marriages/ divorces,- "oh they must be dating now because they hugged after a basketball game"- I'm sick of tabloids and reading shitty untrue things on a magazine cover or news forum. They're all assumptions. There's too many journalists out there making shit up just to get an audience.
My home. I need to get away from routine.
Music.
Liars and fakers.
People who complain about stuff and don't do anything about it.
Myself because I can't accept these "annoying things" as life. There will be negativity and things that I don't like and I shouldn't let them turn me into an angry person. I've been so angry and annoyed that I want to be alone most of the time. I keep thinking about what I can do better than what I am already good at. I haven't accepted who I am because I want to be more. But that makes me unhappy because I'm trying to be someone who I'm not. Why try to be confident when I'm simply just not confident at all? Why try to be social when I dislike getting to know a lot of people? Why try to be all these things thinking that I can be a better person when I'm just not like it at all. Why can't I accept that I like being quiet, alone and not open. That doesn't make me a bad person.