It's last week of uni next week and I have two tests that I'm just like who cares, it's last week.. your other assignments were graded good enough to allow these two tests to be poorly done lollllll I've studied but I'm not revising more than i normally would in a stressful situation. I guess I'm not so stressed about the tests because I do have my stuff down, now that i've overcome the issue at work but I'm getting the feeling that there's going to be some curveball that's going to be thrown and I'm going to flip out saying 'I SAW THIS IN THE TEXTBOOK BUT THOUGHT IT WAS IRRELEVANT BUT NOO, IT'S RELEVANT' .. who hasn't experienced that with any test, honestly..

but last week, cheeeeeersss and I have one exam and one last assignment during STUVAC. I'm not as excited as I was in the beginning of the semester because I'm starting to settle down into uni and being organized; marking down when assignments are due and when to start them. Lol took me 13 weeks, nah I probably felt comfortable around week 8 after mid sem break and I wouldn't mind continuing on and having another extra idk.. 3 weeks of uni? Just so I can avoid work lol but you know, the break is good too. I don't like exam period because I hate memorizing stuff. I want to memorize lines from a play.

Also speaking of plays, I've been compiling all the contemporary/shakespeare plays under the requirements for auditions at NIDA. I'm slightly freaked out because I'm reading As You Like it again (thankgod we can use that) and there's Ibsen!! Heinrik Ibsen, remember him?!?! You have to select one of his plays as part of the contemporary part but yay!! So glad I know one of them!! (A Doll's House) but anyway, Shakespeare. omg. Thou, thy, art, shall, etcetc I couldn't even get through 2 lines in one go. My tongue kept getting twisted. THAT JUST MEANS MORE PRACTICE :)

I don't have high hopes for first audition, I just want to see what the atmosphere is like because I don't want to walk in there and be increasingly intimidated and nervous.. then cry in the corner.. but familiarizing myself with that type of process that happens with any film/ theatre/ music auditions, is good experience. I hope my 2nd or 3rd audition will get me through. 4th even. After 5 I may just look around for other places.

I don't want to be in that phase when I reach 25 and I haven't achieved anything. Besides uni. I want to able to put my education into practice and turn it into a living in a considerably young age. My sisters are mid 20s and they both work but they're not happy with it. It's like they're stuck and I don't want to be stuck. I want to keep going. Have a consistent agenda and have things thrown at me while I knock them down one by one. I want to be kept busy and distracted. I want to be able to live and remember my 20s where I did the most experimental things with my talent, knowledge, age and living. I want it to be the period where I found someone and got married, have some sort of reunion, travel to unique places, go to a baby shower or experience of my friend's first pregnancy!! I want a crap load of things to happen within that decade lol

Because looking back, now that I'm 19 and this is the last year before I turn 20, it was basically just studying and partying lol And I understand that I've been alive for 19 years which is not a very long time but having this sort of mentality to achieve things in a short amount of time makes me feel somewhat complete. So when i get around to being in my mid 20s and achieved quite a lot then it's enough to halt things so I can settle down with a family and continue on with life later.

Getting married and pregnant, how bizarre.


Sunday, June 1, 2014 1:27 PM