I feel good this week because I'm only working two days. The rest is beach house... and I got my New Balance shoes today :)

I really can't wait to just get away from my parents and not have them on my back all the time because the past 4 days have all been about Chinese New Year. There's the big grand dinner on CNY eve then after that it's just annoying visits to people's homes and paying our respects... and it bothers me and my sisters all the time every year.

I've been sad, upset, hopeless (not useless, just out of hope), smiley, skeptical and all kinds of emotions recently and right now I have three thoughts: Uni is in a month. I'm feeling scared and anxious. When it gets closer I'm going to be very very anxious. The next was am I going to be alright this time? because I wasn't alright the first time. And the third one was I wished there was a guy in my life.

I don't feel lonely now without a guy but I'd like comfort and honestly, someone who can distract me because I'm not always feeling my best. I forgot what it's like to like someone but boy, it's a phenomenal feeling when you do LOL I'd like to think that if there was someone by my side who actually likes me, it'll make me happy. I don't know whether I should put myself out there or just kick back and let it all happen but recently it's been bugging me and I want someone to talk to.

Perhaps having a boyfriend will piss my parents off a bit... which is totally fine with me because it's a great wake up call to tell them that someone is growing up :)

And I'm not that critical on what I look for in a guy except for two things:
Great smile and
Humbling.
I figured that when I first meet someone I'm always attracted to their smile. Sounds really typical but as soon as they laugh or grin and that smile of theirs appear, it's really wonderful.
And humbling because I don't want an egotistic, loud, ignorant, ill-mannered person. Someone who respects their family, themselves and other people. LOL

Sooooo... that's how I feel.... I pretty much want to be in love.

Byebye.


Monday, February 3, 2014 7:54 PM