A lot of people have told me to do education as a backup from Arts. I get it. Arts isn't great. And... I kind of don't care. I mean if this was your future, you probably won't be happy with it but I have plans. Greater plans. And I always have a backup.

My sister supports me 100%, all the way with NIDA and acting. She believes in me. It's all I need. Someone to genuinely believe in me so I can believe in myself. And it's that strong, that I do believe in myself. That's what pushes me to pursue this. I don't care what people say. They say a dream is a dream when you make it happen despite everything that is happening around you. If, for a second, you start doubting yourself and stop pursuing it, then it is not a dream. This is my dream and I can not express it any clearer.

So when I got that anonymous message on tumblr whom the sender may or may not read this now, I don't like how you told me what I should or shouldn't do. You sound like a parent telling their child how to live their life. I see that you have an issue in what I am doing with my life and what I am studying in university but that's my decision and in the end, it will be my fault if it doesn't turn out right and I am okay with that. I don't like how you emphasized how "USELESS" my course is. It is not useless. I am learning. I am enjoying what I am learning. I enjoy learning about Greek societies and ancient histories that much, at times I envision myself being a history teacher and telling them everything I know because it's so freaking interesting. I do that already to my cousins who are learning history at school. And everything that appears in life everyday, I can easily point out, 'Hey that's Greek for ...' or 'Hey that means this or that came from this'. I enjoy Arts. The fact that I enjoy it so much, I blur out the possibility of me finding a job after uni.

So to have you tell me what to do and how USELESS my course is, hurt me because you were the first to admit it to me, although it was ironically anonymous. You said it. I heard. But you're not in control of my life. You may study law, engineering, med, commerce, economics etc etc and get a really great job afterwards, that's good for you. But I have a plan. I have a dream that I want to live out and neither law, engineering, med, commerce, economics or any other course is involved in that. 


And so I'm going to continue studying Arts until I graduate and follow my plan. And I do plan on studying education in some point of my life but not right now. I want to see how far my dream will go. Time is not an issue with me. I have all the time in the world to do what I want. Unless I unexpectedly die which will definitely not happen until I am old and wrinkly.

I'm writing this because so many people have told me to do education. They are worried about me. I know. I know. I know. I know. I know. I know. I know. I know. Don't think I'm not worried for myself because I am. I'm taking a risk with my LIFE. A RISK. I mean what is the one thing that you would realistically risk your life for?


Friday, February 21, 2014 10:09 PM