I have a confidence issue with my body. When I mean confidence I mean showing off too much skin publicly in the clothes I wear.

So I wore a black tight skirt and a grey sweater to work yesterday with ankle boots, leaving my legs bare and as soon as I walked outside the house and I was at the station and work, I felt like a slut. I'm thinking the only skin I'm baring are my legs but this tight black skirt (which wasn't that short, probably a few cms above the knee) and ankle boots made me feel so skanky. And usually when I'm uncomfortable in what I'm wearing I would crouch my shoulders in with my collarbones protruding or just stand in a very awkward and slouchy stance. That's when I know I feel uncomfortable in what I'm wearing.

I've actually had this on several occasions because I'd come home and my back is all sore. I'm full confident at home but when I leave the house, I hate expressing my body. I don't like it when the flesh of my stomach is exposed or shorts are up my ass, or... omg. especially tight dresses. OMG FORMAL. Even though that was a good occasion to feel confident since everyone was wearing something that showed their skin, I had a tight short dress with an open back and I felt so uneasy.

And I'm looking at all these girls wearing tight dresses to clubs and stuff on their instagrams or facebook etc and I'm thinking, how are they so confident. Like I don't want to be a slut but I also don't want to be shy. Actually I think the problem here is my confidence with tight clothes. Yeahhh... that's it. Tight clothes...


On the other hand, I'm trying to enrol for the next year but I don't know how to. Like am I applying for both next year and 2015 and I don't know what these requirements mean to major in a subject. There's like ' __ maximum senior credit points' '' ___ core unit of studies required from __ units of study' '2000 level and 3000 level requirements' 'must complete 144 credit points in which ___ senior points must come from etc etc etc' it all means jibberish to meeeee. And farout I misread the last date for opening hours for uni. It was yday :( I thought it was thursday (tomorrow) so I could ask them questions today. Maybe I can ask my sister's friend who also goes to usyd. Maybe he can help me hehe


Wednesday, December 18, 2013 10:45 AM