Waiting for the break because now I'm way over my head with all the work piling up. It's making me sad.

I try really hard not to think too far into the future or what happens tmr or tonight or next week, next month, next assessment, next test, next this next that... I try to stay in the moment and focus on what I have now like getting this done.

I underestimated how long making notes for 2 chapters takes because normally it'd take me 2 hours but I think altogether, it was 5 hours. Now i have to study it for next weeks quiz. Trying not to think about that too. Keep thinking about assessments mostly like the 3000 word essay, 2250 word exercise, doing research and finding books for 1500 wd essay... returning a book coz someone recalled it which means I have to do the research now. I hate stuff like that.. a lot.

Then i think my saturdays are ruined with work having to stand there in the store serving customers. Wasting 8 hours of my day being underpaid.

Then I remember that there are birthday parties or outings or being called out to go somewhere but being really reluctant to tell my parents because they'll get mad. Sometimes I don't bother asking or telling them coz it's not worth the fight. But then I remember my sisters never got to go out when they were my age

Then I go into bed getting excited to sleep and dream about wonderful things for a good 8 hours but when I wake up I feel so crappy because I have stuff to do and places to be and ugh... priorities.

Also felt like I've lost my interest in shopping and fashion etc etc Haven't bought clothes or anything in so long, which doesn't bother me but like.. i'm wearing almost the same thing every week to uni. It's.. unacceptable!

And I want to go to cousins graduation at school next thurs but I can't because I have to collect my exam paper which they will only allow to be collected on that day during our lecture. But I think I'll get back before 12... but I have another 4 hours of uni in the arvo... ugh

Feels like I haven't seen my friends in so long. Feels like I'm isolating myself again. Been eating snacks way too much during the night. My craving hour is between 8-9pm.. just saying ...

I wished I knew how to drive because i reallllllyyyyyyy cannnnn'tttt beeee botherrrrreedd to learrrrnnnnn......... Friends make driving seem so fun and cool...

Wished people would stop depending on their parents to pay stuff for them...

Too many thoughts..... they're just popping up along the way

Wished my hair was long for one day so I can remember what it was like... also so I can braid my hair coz I liked braiding my hair... and putting it up in a bun. But I hate hair. Irritates ma face

Wished my skin wasn't so dry. It's spring so blossom!!!

Really despise laziness now. hahahha how hypocritical... i cbb to learn driving... when i mean laziness, I mean laziness towards life. Having a purpose everyday. Like few weeks back, I got really sick of being lazy. Sitting on my bed spending time on my phone or watching movies for like 4 days etc ... I got incredibly frustrated. I looked forward to work back then.

 One Direction is coming to aus at the end of the month I think.. gonna see them october 5th. They're here for all of October..... ugghhhhhh that's my worst monthhhhh... everything's so packed.... omg i see imagine dragons tooooooooo

so like on this macbook, why is it when I hold down some letters they don't do this ooooooooooooooooooooooooo lolll yet i still use this laptop and not the other

Have a good weekend. week 8 next week yayyayyayayyaya then 9, 10, 11, 12, 13 then exams.
omg i think i only have one exam. idk whether to be happy or not because normally i do well in exams which lifts all my crappy marks during the sem. holy crap, i better pass :(

don't think too far em

better get off. cbb to check mistakes. I typed so weird today.

byebye!



Friday, September 13, 2013 5:03 PM