No one is at home but me tonight. I could be doing so many other things but I'm lying down on my sis' bed while watching Charlie and the Chocolate factory and I feel so comfortable.

I started the day off bad. When I opened my eyes from my sleep and the first thing I felt was utter crap. And then I had to take the bus to work which meant I had to leave half an hour earlier. Then I got to work and it was freezing. Then I opened the shop and the first guy that bought a pair of shoes demanded I call up the manager to ask for a discount on two pairs of Roc school shoes and i'm like 'no' in my head but I asked my sis and she gave him 20 bucks off altogether.

And I hate 'buy 1 get 1 for half price' deals. It's everywhere in the store now

Then around 3pm things started to brighten up because more people came into the store which meant more work which meant distraction which meant time flew.

Then I took the bus back home. Pit stop at Bankstown to change buses and waited half an hour because of cityrail. I've become a victim of cityrail... but with the bus...

Then home, parents left, shower, dinner, read, tv, blog and planning to sleep in half an hour.

And I was thinking at work today if I would try out for Big Brother and I thought 'Yes for the experience but no because I don't think I could handle it or I wouldn't be myself entirely'

And you know what made me feel sad was that I realized that uni has made me less social. That I've become more isolated and lonely than ever and even more, the saddest thing about that is that I don't mind it. That I almost enjoy being by myself and it worries me because what if I become less talkative (I probably already am) and that I don't care about making new friends or meeting new people. I got pretty pissy in sem 1 for only making like 4 friends but now I couldn't care any less. But hey I made 6 girl friends in one day. All white too. Hoorah. Yet I don't care. I literally don't lol WHICH IS SO SADDDDDD I feel like I have enough friends now that I don't need any more but those friends aren't with me at uni so it's pushing me to go and make new friends but i seriously cbb LOL What is wrong with me LOL

But my sis told me to not get sad over it.

Man I wished I could meet everyone and be eachothers bffls so I wouldn't have to put the effort into friendship. LOL Wished everyone was my brother or sister and we clicked on like that!

I like sitting by myself in a lecture theatre/ auditorium. I like sitting by myself when I'm on my break. I like reading by myself. But I also like being in a group and discussing about stuff. I hate being partnered with someone because that would mean intimacy and I don't do intimacy unless I really find the person I'm working with attractive... but I would probably stutter and embarass myself infront of them while gazing at their gorgeous eyes and straight teeth.

aw man, when I say I like a guy with a nice smile, I mean it. And a nice smile comes with straight teeth lollll I can't help it. I like a guy with straight teeth. Well at least the top or whatever is visible when he smiles. But I'm guessing most people have had braces because I haven't seen anyone yet with horrid teeth.

I keep thinking about that cute guy in my film tute. I saw him at the lecture the following day but with 2 girls. They looked friendly. I don't have a thing for him. He's just like one of the good-looking guys from the movies or magazines and it's hard to believe that there are actually attractive men out there LOL

But he was a sweet heart.

with a good fashion sense too

and tall.

and nice hair omg.

He's too good for any girl.

I'm tired. Gonna snooze

And I missed out on the beautiful weather today. Apparently it was sunny and warm. I was inside all day feeling cold. Working again tomorrow and I believe it's the same weather? I've been missing out on too many Sundays

Goodnight!





Saturday, August 10, 2013 10:11 PM