Dream a little dream of me

Again

I thought I'd blog because right now is a good time. Everything's happy and settled. No worries when I wake up. I can sleep in. I can wake up for work. I can see my friends. I don't have to do any study.

I've been thinking about my dreams again. I always do. Sometimes I wonder if it bores people when I talk about it because... I always mention it.

There's this huge question of whether luck will play by my side and take me a long way or I'll always keep trying and end up nowhere. I'm already doing a course that guarantees difficulty in finding a job after uni. I know it wasn't very smart to do Arts because there isn't really much to offer after but honestly I wasn't interested in anything else besides history and drama and Arts offered that. I could of done a double degree of Arts/education but time bothered me, even though its only a year extra on top of my 3 years.

I really hope everything I dream of now works out well in the end. I get embarrassed all the time when someone asks me what course I do because Arts doesn't sound very impressive and I can't give them the background to why I'm doing it.

I'm doing it because

I like history and drama
I kind of don't want to waste my time doing another course when I really want to pursue acting
Of the scholarship which has done no good anyway

Today I went to check my eyes and my optometrist who is like... Mid 20s and married, last saw me before I started uni. He asked me how uni was and what course I studied, I mumbled Arts. He then asked cringingly 'Isn't it hard to find a job after with that degree?' I said 'Yeah I know but I wasn't interested in anything else.' He then told me his wife studied Arts and now she's working for him. She was the receptionist. ... But I don't want to be that. I want to achieve something on my own. I want to be able to tell people that I've gotten this far and achieved so much by myself.

It also makes me wonder why I'm not interested in health sciences or health overall. I play(ed) sports and did SLR and sport science in high school... But why wasn't I interested in studying something like that in uni. Why didn't I choose to go to a sports school or an academy and join a basketball or athletic team.

I don't know how people enjoy commerce, economics, retail, business etc etc etc. Doesn't it bore you? I mean some people may study it to start up a business after but wouldn't you want something more lively?

So I only hope that every time I try, it'll get me somewhere. That trying is one step closer to success and that i'll actually reach my dreams. And if all else fails, I guess I can be a teacher.

Which sucks a lil.

Monday, July 15, 2013 6:39 PM