So I haven't been on tumblr in a while and I saw this




 So pretty.

I have so many things to do this holiday before I can actually have a holiday. LOL

1. Take care of my skin and clean my brows. 
2. Clean my room
3. Chuck stuff I don't need for next semester or for anything because I only did those subjects to fill up my units
4. Find an outfit for Gatsby, what Gatsby?
5. Find sis's cups
6. Refund cups 
7. Set a plan for KIK on Saturday since I have work. i.e tell them where stuff is
8. Clean out my closet
9. Move stuff out of my room
10. Update my diary and expenses. Since work and uni, I haven't been writing down my spendings buttt the more I earn, the more I save. Idk why, I just hate spending.

I realized if I'm going to audition for NIDA I should know some lines now... because it's better to be prepared and feel confident in the room. Auditions suck. Not that I ever had one but it's like job interviews. Job interviews suck too.

I worry a lot. I hope people have fun on Saturday despite how my parents react. My sisters thought the same. One of them was like 'Is there going to be alcohol? Are you guys going to be done by 9pm?' and i was like 'umm................no................................... what kind of party is that? Even our family parties don't end that early' oh as for alcohol, I simply said 'I don't know, maybe' She's not even going to be home that night anyways. But I'm hoping that people will have fun as well as my parents being okay with everything.

I think with my parents is that they're still living in their generation. In the fields...... planting..... working........ and that has pretty much been part of half of their lives because my parents moved to Aus like 25 years ago and had my sister. Because they were my age or my sisters age once, they were still living under the authority of my grandma/ grandpa and couldn't really have that much free time. So i think they're just throwing it onto us.

I don't think my parents want to accept the fact that their daughters are growing up and.... the fact that my sister is almost 25, she doesn't live a life of a 25 year old which is sad because.... my parents restrict her. I should be grateful for being allowed to go out more than usual because when my sisters were 18 they didn't go out as much. They were the first to put my parents to the test.

So now I've been spending a lot of time with friends and my sisters and I know my parents don't like it. But you know someone has to show them that we can't always be under your roof and stay as your little girls. So gradually I've been taking responsibility and showing them that I'm a grown up and my parents need to ease off a little, time after time. I can't talk to them about it because they won't listen and .. I don't have that kind of relationship with my parents like white kids do with their parents lol

I don't hate my parents. I'm just teaching them that things are going to change soon when we find a boyfriend, get married, move out and have children. Our work is far. Our home is not this home and that they should be prepared.


Thursday, June 27, 2013 1:04 PM