I guess if I have nothing else to do, I'll just blog but I was considering on going thrift shopping after 1pm because I want to watch Ellen :)

How is everyone?
Good?

Bad?

Okay?

Could be better?

I'm feeling good now LOL but soon it'll get down to bad.. and stressed...


1. I found out something that was difficult for me to do... answer questions about myself. It was so odd because it felt like I didn't know much about myself and I had to question whether this was me or this wasn't. Like what if I had to do an interview and I don't know how to answer the questions. I know the basics like what's my name LOL where I was born, my height, weight, how many sisters/ brothers, where I went to school and such but it's more of the personal things like 'Would I rather this or that' or 'Do you think you're willing to go all the way to do this..

2.Lately I've becoming interested in tattoos, not that I'll be getting one soon. Source of inspiration? from my sad little brain sitting in there looking for someone to say 'You can do this' 'Don't give up' 'Persist and strive' 'make those dreams come true' 'overcome those fears' and to sum up in one word... I don't know. Once I find that one word that fits all of those quotes together, I'll tattoo it up!

3. I have definitely changed as a person since the past... 5 months. I think 2013 has opened up a lot of weaknesses to me, some that I need to overcome and endure to ensure that 1/3 of my 'life' is fulfilled. Sometimes I have to be brave, sometimes I have to be unhappy and not get what I want and sometimes accept the fact that life is like this when there is no school.

I've been going out relatively more than I did back in school. I've been on my phone a lot, especially during uni- I used to never charge my phone everyday. Now my battery just keeps dying. I've learnt how to be independent and lonely LOL I've learnt how to pay the bills hahaha Oh yeah and buy stuff online since I'm 18 and I can apply for stuff, I can shop online on my own without using my sisters credit card.

I'm enjoying alcohol now which I should slow down. Maybe just cocktails and wine now LOL I also have had a lot of 'me' time, meaning discovering who I am and I HAVE discovered so many things about me. Experiences triggers soooooo many discoveries.

4. Also I found listening to Taylor Swift's Red soothing. I really like 'Sad Beautiful Tragic' and 'Holy Ground' and 'Everything has Changed' and 'The Lucky One' .. I like it all actually. It kind of just puts aside I knew you were Trouble and We are never getting back together because they're her more recent songs. I listen to her on the train to u.n.i-asdfghjkl and puts a :) on my face.

5. I am employed. And tomorrow is my first day.

6. Money money money is always a dilemma. Cousin is going on a cruise with his family + grandma + other cousins.. I guess to celebrate HSC since he finishes this year and asked if I wanted to go. I WANT TO. A CRUISE IS SO AWESOME AND COOL AND EXOTIC AND ... LIVING THE LIFE. But I'm saving up for something else.

Friday, May 10, 2013 10:41 AM