Lately I've been judging myself. They say when someone judges you, just ignore it. But in all honesty, I care what people have to say about me because I don't want that little insecurity to be evident everywhere. But they say if you care, you won't be yourself. But if I'm myself, people will still judge. You must be thinking 'Cmon Emily, just ignore what ppl say or do to you' - I can't. I mean at the time it's all jokes but when I get home, it's suddenly not a joke to me.

So I've been judging myself and it's a very cruel thing I've been doing. I'm not the strongest person you'll ever meet nor do I have any confidence. I never give myself any sympathy. I always think of all the failures I've had. I guess what I'm saying is that I don't think I could ever live up to be the person I want to be and it breaks my heart because I'm hurting each and every day. Friday, May 3, 2013 8:42 AM