I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO BLOG ANYMORE.

I CAN'T EVEN THINK OF SONG TITLES TO USE AS MY HEADING.

I DON'T LIKE UNI. I was thinking... I'm getting tired in putting the effort to meet new people. I don't want to get to know them, I just want to know them already LOL Like in highschoooooool. I don't want to have to introduce myself again and say 'hi, i'm emily. I'm from CVHS. How about you?' I think I'd rather stay in my own area unless I have to join a group discussion or assignment == I fear that studying a bachelor of arts degree will put me in a disadvantage because (I really really don't want to be mean but I don't know how to put it in a ..... -at this time I spent about 15 minutes looking for this word that Emma Watson said in an interview and that I wanted to use but I CAN'T REMEMBER. In the end I couldn't find the word so instead I used- less offensive way. Because the students who wanted to do a Bachelor of Arts didn't meet the required atar of 80.05..  meant that they were begging to get in and relying on EAS points which also meant that they didn't do so well in their HSC... which means FOR ME... that .. they... aren't .... so.... intelligent......... PLEASE DON'T HURT ME. And that even puts me in a really hazy mood because I kind of don't care about university because really, all I care about is NIDA.

GOD HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I TALKED ABOUT THIS.

A MILLION TIMES. I KNOW :(

MY DREAMS AND ASPIRATIONSSSS

I made a plan. I worked out if I get a job and lets say its pay rate is $18/hr ... so 18x (6 hours a day) x (4 days a week) x (around 50 weeks a year) = $21,600 WHICH MEANS I CAN PAY OFF MY UNI FEES because it's around $6000 a year which isn't really anything LOL THEN I CAN SAVE SAVE SAVE FOR NIDA. Nida will crap out $50,000 I bet... OHHHHH I WANNA GO TO EUROPE WITH MY SISTERRRR. Oh yeah she's planning to go Europe during March/ April because she needs a vacation (she really does and it's her birthday.. and mine. We're a week apart :( AND I WANT TO COMMEEEEE. BUT WHERE IS THE MONEY??!?!

THEN BY NIDA I CAN AFFORD MY OWN AGENT AND THAT AGENT CAN HELP ME GET INTO PLAYS, ACTING GIGS, FESTIVALS ETCCCCCCCCCCCCCCC.

I'm kind of sad too because I'm doing this on my own. My parents don't know of this path I'm taking. I MEAN IF I HAD WHITE PARENTS, MONEY WOULDN'T BE A PROBLEM. AND I'D PROBABLY GO TO SOME COLLEGE OR ACTING INSTITUTION/ SCHOOL. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT, If I make it... I have a success story and I will be eternally grateful on how far I've come.

ASIDE FROM THAT. A MONTH AND A BIT OF HOLIDAYS LEFT AND WHAT HAVE I DONE?!?!? I DON'T KNOW.

I WANT TO GO OVERSEAS. I STILL HAVE TIME. BUT TIMETABLES FOR USYD COMES OUT IN MID- FEB AND I NEED TO MAKE ADJUSTMENTS WITH MY UNITS OF STUDY. Oh and did I mention I'm learning French? How odd LOL OMGGGGGGGGGGGG and to major in Film Studies, you have to do ART HISTORY. ART HISTORYYYYYY!!!!!!!!! I thought I WAS DONE WITH ART AND ART HISTORY AND THE RENAISSANCE AND INDUSTRIAL REVOLUTION AND ART ART ART. BUT THENNNNNNNN, I went home after enrollment and sis asked how'd I go and I replied I think it went well. She wanted to understand how the course worked and I told her but she still didn't understand so she searched it up herself and I told her I definitely majored in Ancient history and Film studies and said Ancient History was fine and THEN SHE GOT TO FILM STUDIES AND SAID 'You don't have to do Art History'. AND I SAID WHATTTT. WHATTTTTTTTT!?!??!?! BECAUSE THE GUY WHO HELPED ME IN THE HALL AT THE TIME OF MY ENROLLMENT AND ME FILLING IN MY UNITS, HE SAID I HAD TO DO BOTH SUBJECTS- ART HISTORY AND THIS OTHER ONE. SO I WROTE BOTH DOWN. AND I COME HOME TO THIS. TO THIS!!! Which is why I'm changing it in Mid-Feb :)

Sorry if I sound loud... and spastic... and loud. I've just been thinking a lot and it's been driving me nuts. I remember what my sister said to me a long time ago and I took it into consideration 'The most crazy people are the ones who think too much'. SO TRUEEEE. LIFE IS JUST FULL OF UNPREDICTABLE AND CRAZY THINGS THAT HAPPEN AND CHANGE WHO YOU ARE. RIGHT NOW, Life is making me worried. And intimidated and nervous.

Oh and lately, since Taylor and Harry are off, I've been getting my Harry feels back and converted my feels for Taylor into hatred. Not so much of hatred maybe...ignorance. Her songs are wicked, I mean I really enjoy 'I knew you were trouble' BUT SHE DOESN'T HAVE TO GO AND WRITE SONGS ABOUT all the guys she dates. It's mean :( Harry's nice :( Don't hurt him :( Please :( I really really really would like to know what happens in all of Taylor's relationships. Is it because of her? or the guy that ends the short-timed love?

Speaking of love, I really want a guy in my life. I forgot what it's like to love and be loved. To hug someone and be within their warmth ESPECIALLY ON THIS GLOOMY DAY. To cook with them and go on adventures LIKE ON A BOAT, SPONTANEOUSLY LOL (-took a spontaneous day with Collin Khin, Andrew Tien and Maria last Monday. So so so much fun and we ended up taking a boat from Circular Quay to Parramatta on the way home-) To watch movies with them til we fall asleep in eachothers arms. To dress fancy and go to a nice restaurant with them for dinner. To wear his clothes and smell them LOL If I had an ideal guy, present to me Harry Styles because he's ideal HEHEHEHHEHE He's so hot in a beanie.

OKAY that's enough. Also, I wished I was tall enough to be a model. But being a model is hard because you're pressured to look in a way the industry wants you to. But modelling is pretty. You see images of these naturally beautiful models whose eyes are so pretty and skin is so flawless, they have flowers around them or the sun is setting and the photograph is taken in the midst of it. And they have good taste in fashion too.. and they attend fashion shows.. I ONLY NEED 5 CMS MORE. But for now, I'll stick to acting.

And lastly, I found this and wanted to do it.

1. Math or English? Mmmmmm Mathhhhh but that's because I did general.
2. Summer or Winter? Winter
3. Morning or Night? Umm night
4. Full House or Family Matters? Never watched
5. Tea or Coffee? Tea!!
6. Harry Potter or Lord of The Rings? Harry Potter but I should rewatch Lord of the Rings
7. Black or White? Black
8. Dogs or Cats? Dogs
9. McDonalds or Burger King? And by Burger King, you mean Hungry Jacks? The fries are better at Maccas but the burgers are better at Hungry Jacks LOL But I'll say... McDonalds
10. Cake or Pie? Pie!
11. Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolate
12. Jocks or Nerds? Both?
13. Cable or Internet? Internet
14. MySpace or Facebook? Facebook
15. The Simpsons or Family Guy? The Simpsons
16. Coke or Pepsi? Can't tell the difference
17. Batman or Superman? Batman woo
18. Fantasy or Reality? Fantasy
19. Comedy or Horror? Comedy
20. Pancake or Waffles? Ooooo waffles
21. Baked or Fried? BOTH.
22. China or Japan? I've only been to China as a kid but I think Japan is better
23. Hamburgers or Hotdogs? Hamburgers
24. Salt or Pepper? Pepper
25. Peanut Butter or Jelly? Peanut butter
26. Boxers or Briefs? Neither LOL
27. Amazon or Ebay? Ebay
28. TV shows or Movies? BOTHHHHH
29. Pen or Pencil? Pen
30. Phone Call or In person? In person
31. Video Games or Board Games? Board games
32. Shower or Bath? Shower but I'd like to have a bath
33. Rain or Snow? OMG SNOW
34. Pixar or Dreamworks? Dreamworks?
35. 30 Rock or The Office? The Office
36. Rock or Rap? Rock
37. Ketchup or Mustard? Ketchup
38. White or Wheat? Wheat
39. Love or Money? Are you serious? LOL I'm not choosing
40. Movies or Reading? Movies
41. Car or Motorcycle? Car
42. Michael Jackson or Elvis? Michael Jackson
43. France or Italy? Awww both :)
44. Gift Cards or Cash? Cash :)
45. Paper or Plastic? Paper
46. Santa Clause or Easter Bunny? Santa Claus
47. Lucky Charms or Trix? I've had neither
48. Mayo or Miracle Whip? None
49. Pickles or Olives? Ew none
50. Dr. Pepper or Mountain Dew? Mountain Dew


Tuesday, January 29, 2013 3:01 PM