Am I taking a risk? A really really big risk? ..... Maybe I shouldn't pursue this dream of mine. I've always believed that one day I'll get an audition for some big scale production or movie and get the role, and that's when my dream starts but it's just crushing me.

I'm only doing this because I enjoy it and I'm passionate about it but I never took it seriously. Like this is what decides my future!! If I go into acting and end up doing nothing, then I messed up. I really really really want to act. I love acting :(

And for NIDA, god knows if I'll even pass the audition. It's sooo elite, it scares me. I hope you're still doing it Bobina and Maria! Because I don't want to do it alone. Just imagine you get accepted into NIDA- LIFE CHANGING. ABSOLUTELY LIFE CHANGING. Most actors came from NIDA like Hugh Jackman, Geoffrey Rush, Cate Blanchett and many more but it's hard to get up there when you're living down under.

I don't want to be famous, that'll be the price that comes with acting... although it's a very nice price LOL But I want to do something that I love and that I know I achieved something that I knew was impossible coming from a 17 year old girl. But yes it sounds impossible now... Noone actually believes in me except for 3 or 4 people... but that's okay BECAUSE I'M GOING TO PROVE YOU WRONG. Hopefully :(

But I can't go NIDA anyways unless I go after uni which will probably be an additional 3 years on top of 3 years of uni = 6 years of study LOOOOOOOOOL. I have that early conditional offer which I don't want to give up because I was pretty lucky with that. Lets see how first few months of uni is and then I'll decide if I really want to go NIDA. ... and oh I asked my sister what she thought about me going to NIDA rather than uni and she's like she doesn't care. Of course I want to go uni but... I want to go NIDA too.

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?

And mum and dad doesn't know I want to do this too. They gone kill meh.

.... ALSOOOOOOOO Did you know 2 weeks from now the world will end?!!?!??! OMG SPOOOKYYYY. We won't die. We musn't. I want to live to see where I will be in 10 years time, see who I marry and how many kids we'll have. Whether they're boys or girls.
See what my baby cousins grow up to be.
See if I do actually become an actor....
See who are still my friends.
See if One Direction still exists LOOOOOL or Justin Bieber.
See if I still like them ahahaha
Omg see if I marry Harry Styles despite his relationship with Taylor now HAHAHA
See where I live, whether in Aus or overseas.
See whether there are flying cars.
See what I'll look like LOL
See what my sisters are doing or who they married omg
See how my parents are doing
... god that sounds old.

bye!


Friday, December 7, 2012 9:30 PM