I was about to fall asleep but then I thought, hey why not do a post? I had a wonderful evening with my cousins/ aunts/ uncles today. I walked into the house and my uncle greeted me with 'HEY! HOW DID YOU GO?.. WAIT. Let me guess.. over 90?' -nods- 'NO WAY...' - And he keeps guessing until I told him and he was so happy. My aunties were around too and they were astounded by my ATAR lol My uncle especially because I slept over grandma's during school and he lived there with his family. He'd always see me study infront of the tv (foxtel) and on my phone. He actually forced me to go to a quiet room to study but I told him it was okay, I'll be fine LOL. He confessed to me that he didn't expect that from me, I don't think anyone did. I think it was the fact that I had a cousin who was more intelligent than I was. He did 3U, physics, went to tutor and was guaranteed a high atar, so to have me up against him I kind of looked like the .. less intelligent one lol I did a lot of creative subjects too. And general mathematics. Wow I have a lot to tell since mentioning that.

Well my uncle shook my hand and congratulated me. I love hand shakes, something great about it lol Ahahahaha after I told him he said 'YOU MADE IT TO THE FM RADIO STATION' - if you don't know what that means, it means like 96.1 or 96.9 etc because there isn't like a known radio station that's 80 point something something. Anyways after that, my other aunty who has a son in year 12 of next year, came up to me and said 'Wtheck, how did you get 9*.**?' And I said 'I don't know' because honestly I don't know. I'm still shocked. And then she said :( 'Your parents should reward you. My son was dux at his primary school and I got him new shoes' My sister was there too and it was really sad because she said 'Try telling that to our parents. They don't get us anything. .... Stop (aunty), you're reminding me of my childhood'. And it was the saddest moment the entire night because my sister didn't get anything at all. She graduated highschool, university, works 7 days a week from 9-5 and my parents have never done anything for her. For the both of them. And me and my sisters are truly blessed for having a home, water and food, we really are but the two most deserving people right now are my sisters. Man I'm so sad. -Yellow by Coldplay is playing in the background-

Moving along, I proved to my freaking relatives that you don't need 2U or 3U or 4U to get over 90's. But they're still appalled. I DON'T CARE. OKAY. I DO GENERAL. SO WHAT. Then my uncle starts saying how 'it doesn't matter. You're asian. You're meant to be good at maths'. YEAH OKAY. Whole family thought I did 2U, you should have seen their faces when I told them I didn't. Why is it that Maths matter more than English in asian families? ==

ANDDD you have no idea how many times I was asked what I wanted to do in Uni. Oh I knew what I wanted to do, I just lied. I lied because GOSH I'M SO ANGRY. My aunty said 'How about interior design? architecture'- She knew I wanted to do Arts but she thought like drawing/ painting/ sculpturing arts and I told her 'Noooor it's like history arts' and I made her even more confused. Then I told her maybe I wanted to be a history teacher and she said 'Aw yer, that's okay. Just do something that'll get you a lot of money'. Whole time that was in my head 'Acting- money? acting- money? acting- money? history teacher- money? historian- money? archaeologist- money?'.

The only person in the room who knew what I wanted to do was my uncle. When someone asked me what I wanted to do, he was there in the room to answer it for me because I was too afraid to answer it for myself. He knew all about NIDA. He was the first person who told me what it was. It was the first time I'd heard of it so thanks to you uncle. He knew I wanted to act, go into theatre, perform. He talked to me so smoothly and comfortably about it 'So you gonna go to NIDA or what?? Gotta start soon you know'. Then he asked me what's wrong and I told him 'No one has faith in me' and in return he gave me the wisest advice I've ever had 'It doesn't matter if no one has faith in you, it depends if you have faith in yourself. If you know you can do it, then do it. No one knows you as much as you do so do what you think you can do best.' And from then, I'm following my dreams.

Bobina, I'm going to try out for NIDA no matter what. I'm still going to university. I still want to graduate from there LOL If I have to do another 3 years of studying, then I'm going for it. I love acting and it makes me happy. I can't put it into words. If another person discourages me, I'm going to prove it to them that I can make it big. Or.. close to big lol And my sis said 'You can buy me a house' . Okay :)

-Charlie Brown is playing. I'm happy again :)-

And I've decided to just go with Arts. Midena told me just because I have that ATAR doesn't mean you have to spend it all. It isn't like cash. You don't need to spend it all unless you want to. Unless you think you'll enjoy that course, you don't have to worry about spending all your ATAR.

Oh and I have a success story. I don't know if you know my cousin Trent, well he's in year 12 of 2013. He was nervous about his HSC after finding out how me and my cousin went. He told me he struggled in Advance English, yeah me too cuz. Hardest thing in ma life. Anyways it was me and a bunch of my cousins gathered around the same uncle and he told us of his life after highschool. He said that he received a UAI? of about 84.. around there.. and he went to UTS to study project management. Trent wanted to achieve high 90's and my uncle told him of how you don't need a high number to succeed. It's true. My uncle who I wouldn't have believed got 80 something, was the richest person I knew in the family LOL Aside from other uncle who's a pharmacist. BUT his point was to show us young kidlings that he went on to university to study something that he liked and came out as a construction manager. Now he's got loads of money, has a family with 2 kids, designs his own house, has a hektic car and practically buys the food for all of our family celebrations. He's successful and that's what we all wanted to be.

I can't wait to see where everyone will be in 10 years time. I'm excited!! I really am. It'll be hard work getting to where you want to be but I can't wait to see whose dreams are fulfilled and who's really living their life. I'm also feeling very happy and gleeful because it's almost Christmas and it really is 'The most wonderful time of the yearrr'. I love it. I LOVE ITTTT. I miss everyone too. I want to see everyone.

I'm in a really good mood :)

Sunday, December 23, 2012 11:52 PM