I just spent the past hour watching videos on the Newtown shooting in Connecticut. These stories, tales, acts of heroism and deaths make this whole thing unimaginable. If you haven't already heard of the shooting then go and search it. I'm actually appalled if you don't know about it. You've been seriously living under a rock. Watch the news if you have to and just inform yourself of what's been happening around the world. It'd actually influence the way you feel towards such sensitive and heartbreaking stories.

When you think of it, 20 children and 7 adults/ teachers died. They died. Innocently. Such precious hearts and souls lost. You know what made me so frustrated was that someone I knew hadn't heard of this news after days it happened so they were informed and their response was 'Oh but what makes it so special about all the other killings?' and I felt disgusted. I wanted to walk away. It wasn't what made it special or not special, it was the fact people died. Whether they were children or not, people still died. As if they were ranking the shooting to the worst one ever in America. It doesn't matter. Omg I'm so .... frustrated. I just.. can't believe they said that.

What could honestly bring a man to shoot these children? To shoot anyone at all? To shoot yourself? To tear the hearts away from these grieving families/ friends/ teachers/ anyone ? I just keep thinking of those children in their classroom sitting in the corner or in the bathroom, locked together in that one room breathing next to eachother, crying even or holding hands and closing their eyes. Covering their ears. Praying. Asking to go home for Christmas. To see their parents. Looking at their teacher for help and hope. What is going through their mind. I'm so freaking sad. I keep wondering what I'd be thinking if I was in their position and honestly, as old as I am now being 17, I would think I would die. I'd think there isn't a chance we'd get out. I'd think that my teacher is the most scared and worried person in the room because she/he is trying to calm all of us down. Just the thought of seeing my teacher cry will make me believe that we'll die.

And then I get even more mad because not only is this shooting so significant to America but what about everything else that is happening around the world. Children die almost everyday in Africa, the poorest parts of Indonesia, Asia, the Middle East and yet no one gives a damn because America is a large nation and they can make their issues seem so much more significant that other countries around the world can care for them. Can you imagine the children who die because of war? Poverty? Abduction? Rape? Disobedience? Slavery? Where are these children? Why hasn't anyone done anything to stop this? If no one, then a group, organization, government, country, the world. I'm not saying no one cares, I'm saying no one is doing anything effective about this. These children are crying for us. Crying for help. We sleep in beds in a home with a family who feeds us, love us, protect us every day. These children may not have a family because their parents died before they were old enough to see them grow, they don't sleep in beds instead on the rocky ground, they find their own food or may not even have any food, water is scarce or polluted, who is there to protect them from the bad people who kidnap them to do awful things? Who is there to tell them that everything will be alright from when the day they were born, things were already horrible? This is happening.. maybe right now.. some child is taught to use a gun, some child is trying to sleep on this rough terrain, some child is crying, some child is being shot dead.

People say why do we live in such a cruel world, it's us who is making it so cruel. That guy did not walk into that elementary school to shoot for fun. He went intending to kill. Maybe not children but someone. Someone in exchange for satisfaction and yet he had the guts, the willpower to look at a young innocent child and shoot them. If we get the help that is needed for these kind of people then maybe the world can be a less cruel. Maybe we could eventually have world peace and no one will die of innocence.

This is a 15 minute video of the shooting. Interviewed are several children who were involved and a teacher who saved her students.




Tuesday, December 18, 2012 9:30 PM