You're not my first priority if we are not together.
I treat boys differently due to the fact that if he was my boyfriend, I'd make him my priority. I'd make sure he feels loved and that I do care about him. But if he wasn't my boyfriend, I'd talk to him like a mate. I wouldn't ask him if he wanted to go somewhere with me because that'll make me feel uncomfortable knowing that you would do something like that with your 'boyfriend'. I also don't like flirting. It's a technique used to capture the guy but I use it to capture MY guy. The guy I intend on dating and not to play with. Honestly, I think flirting is horrible. I wouldn't flirt with a guy unless I really wanted to be with him. Other than that, flirting has an insignificant purpose.
I haven't had a boyfriend for almost 3 years. Make that 3 years in February. I don't miss having one because it's probably the most worrying times of your life; you could easily disappoint the other person or you'd have to find quality time with them. But on the bright side, it's wonderful to have someone always by your side. Someone who's willing to listen to your problems and ... hug you hehe
Hugs were always awesome. To think of it, I haven't had a proper hug since ... well I don't really remember. A hug that's lasted for more than 10 seconds. I've had hugs over the year that were like 'Aw thankyou!' or 'Happy Birthday!' but never hugs that were long lasting and you could actually remember what they felt like. I miss hugs.
Also you would always have fantasies of what you would do with your ideal boyfriend. Like snuggling up in a couch or bed while he kisses you all over your face or walk from behind and cover your eyes while giving you the biggest hug.
Sometimes I get afraid that because I've stayed single for this long, I might forget what's it like to be in a relationship. Forget how to manage one and the amount of time you dedicate to this one special person.
I hope one day a special person will walk into my life someday and make it easy. I hope they make me feel eternally happy and that there won't be any worries. Monday, January 16, 2012 11:58 AM