Today's a different day. I've never been this sad for a long time.
Everything's changing and I think i am too.

I've got to admit, I cried several times today as soon as i came back from school and before i went to bed. Now as i write this, i'm crying now. I don't want to make myself seem all depressed but i feel terrible and i don't know what else to do.

I keep telling myself I'm not smart and it's not a good thing to do.
I am a very pessimistic person. So pessimistic and so very sensitive. Noone knows because i always have that huge smile on my face every time someone says "Are you ok?"

No i'm not. I'm almost melancholy. I hate thinking so far beyond now.

I hate this so much. It's coming back to me. Everything i was thinking about last year has caught up to me and it's not giving me any help.

I wished i had more confidence and happiness in myself coz now, i feel like locking myself in my room and not hearing a single word from the outside world. Monday, October 25, 2010 10:22 PM