Dream a little dream of me

Gotta trust myself to everything i lose

I TOLD MYSELF THAT I SHOULD DO WELL THIS YEAR AND I FAILED.
NOW I'VE TOLD MYSELF ONCE AGAIN TO DO MY ABSOLUTE BEST THIS TERM AND NOW I FEEL LIKE I'VE ALREADY PUT MYSELF DOWN.
WHY IS IT THIS HARD TO JUST STUDY, CONCENTRATE, EVACUATE ALL THE DISTRACTIONS AND JUST DO WELL.
WTF IS WRONG WITH ME.
IM BEING SO HARD ON MYSELF THAT IM GETTING TO THE POINT WHERE I JUST WANNA GIVE UP.
MY SISTERS. I THINK ABOUT THEM ALL THE TIME AND JSUT THINK TO MYSELF, I'M THE WORST. THE WORST OUT OF 3 SISTERS. HOW CAN MY PARENTS LIVE WITH THAT.
I FEEL LIKE CRYING, LIKE LETTING EVERYTHING GO. I'M TRYING HARD, IM NOT DOING WHAT I SHOULD DO. I HAVE THESE LITTLE THINGS THAT JUST TAKE ME AWAY AND I CANT FOCUS ON ANYTHING AT ALL.
I PROMISED MYSELF. I DID.

Sunday, October 25, 2009 9:05 PM